i don't feel alright.
although i know that tml will be a fatastic day.
we're going to cheer out at chalet tml.
a 3-days chalet.
for we mentoring family.
it will be fun.
we will go crazy.
but i don't deserve to enjoy.
i still have alot of work to do.
like right now.
i am supposed to prepare photos for printing and rush out my assignment before i go chalet.
my assignment is due on this friday.
i want to focus in being crazy, having fun in chalet.
i don't think i can.
went oldies care center today.
it was not a good feeling seeing them like that.
i want to help them.
i don't know how much i'm able to do.
but i'll try.
they give me alot of thoughts.
it's hard to describe.
just i feel so sorry for them.
so upset.
so down.
we are human beings.
so what.
we are fragile.
physically and mentally.
they need help.
they need warmth.
i need too.
another thing makes me not okay is actually.
i did something wrong.
i am sorry about that.
i am too stupid. (alright, i hate this word from now on)
i am always like that.
say whatever i want to say.
do whatever i want to do.
get grustrated easily.
so things always end up like shit.
LIKE SHIT.
i am sorry that i express myself in an improper way.
it just like a needle in my heart.
haiz.
this post seems very random.
